Remember? memory, it can rip your head to shreds in a few short years leaving the happy times with no pictures, just some words like you once read in a book.Every inner tingle you had that lifted you out of the moody sad moments is now a cramp that once shaken is replaced by a fear of just about everything because only you yourself, knows there is nothing left...and how to explain? explain to friends or family what its like in a new chapter in your own mind.,followed by more untill you have the book..you tried to let them read it at the beginning, but never get past the start.Its a unique state to me, as it will be to only the ones who have/had the same memories.i cant call it a struggle now, there is nothing to grab hold of.
you only struggle to explain and you cant, there are experts of the mind i know, but
not one could get near to repairing the damage.No ammount of 'expert' chats can put
you on the mend...Head piled high with the lowest thoughts possible, it just doesnt
seem real yet i know it is.take away that part of my brain? then forget? hypnotize me
into another person in another life and forget? how? remove all feelings, numb and void...remove all memory, blind, sounds great..love is up there untouchable,its hanging on the end of every breath.it will go when i go.,untill then its this that hurts beyond words.....love you bothXXdad.
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